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1.
Garden 05:10
You grazed in the pasture I wanted some But I wouldn’t run to you I chased you down after Tell me the taste I see the sun kissed you I do We traced the old city wall I know the place I met them all with you The garden was dark and sprawled with you With you, I do
2.
I wish that it was 1970 I’d call your answering machine Pretend you’re whispering to me Instead I see your face on every screen I wish that I could isolate the pain Cut it out, sterilize, and clean Give the wound a couple weeks Instead it fills me whole, bursts at the seams Let me miss you Let me forget you If I can’t kiss you Can I regret you Your sweat stains my sheets Your lips brush my cheek In my dreams, in my dreams Let me miss you I wish that I could recoup all I spent Expanding the rooms of my mind Just to fit you within them Instead I’ll be too scared to build again I’ll try to invent what comes next I’ll remove your name from those plans Alchemize the torment into text Clear my head Let me miss you Let me forget you If I can’t kiss you Can I regret you Your air’s all I breathe Your arms cradle me In my dreams, in my dreams Let me miss you
3.
Votives 04:18
It’s been a few months, have you noticed My friends are all ordering votives Guaranteed, let em burn Your true love will return But I’ve never been one for clear motives I held the flame in my mind Red, gold (girl you gotta snuff the glow) I held the weight of the time Let go Lighter on my own Votives, votives, votives I passed our old spot, windows boarded Eyes to the ground, I ignored it If you haunt the back booth, like I dream that you do You might need a new address by morning I held the flame in my mind Red, gold (girl you know you gotta blow) I held the weight of the time Let go Lighter on my own Votives, votives, votives Votives, votives, votives
4.
Running 02:49
If you knew you’d think I’m crazed Honestly, I’d agree Been a while since I spoke your name The shape tastes salty My horoscope said to stop hoarding Without memories, the present gets boring I’m only human Always want what I can’t have When it’s you Breathe in deep, exhale a laugh It’s absurd Circled every ring of hell I’m still running, running, running From the way we felt Sleeping at my parents’ house The walls remember you From that winter when I drove To the airport like a fool I watched you unloading your bags Just watched as you never looked back I’m only human Always want what I can’t have When it’s you Breathe in deep, exhale a laugh It’s absurd Circled every ring of hell I’m still running, running, running From the way we felt
5.
Open, Hoping 03:42
I’ve been open, hoping for days Shrugging off sleep Disappointed when I wake I’ve been open, hoping for days Curtains open, doors open while we change Last night I dreamt of dirty feet Would I remember seeing you You promised you’d come back for me I’ve been open, hoping for days Curtains open, doors open while we change Everyone leaves when you need them the most I know it’s not about me, but it hurts being alone Empty rooms, quiet hallways when I’m home I’ve been open, hoping for days Staring into white walls Shadows forming your face I’ve been open, hoping for days Curtains open, doors open while we change Last week I went out to greet you The petals were falling, but I just couldn’t feel you Your body’s underground, but you’ve run far from there by now Can you hear me, can you speak Are you happy, are you laughing To love is to set free, but I wish you’d stayed with me Everyone leaves when you need them the most I know it’s not about me, but it hurts being alone Empty rooms, quiet hallways when I’m home Is it a myth we can exist on our own Sometimes I need space, but sometimes I need to us To be here, to be held, to be whole I’ve been open, hoping for days I’ve been open, hoping for days
6.
Hissing 03:39
We walked to the water It reached for us, hissing Like the wind between my teeth Laugh, we’re ridiculous A planet of sharp sand, swirling Coating our bones I’d stand still forever To feel you floating beside me Heat up two square miles Coax me from hiding I need you to drag me I’m selfish sometimes I’ll hear your voice in shells for years I’ll smell the foam that coats our knees and toes The waves they crash, then just roll past They always pass us I’m okay, but could you help me up We smoked a spliff on the deck I don’t usually do this But we’re on vacation I’m trying to be content Sitting and staying It’s actually pleasant Laid in the dunes It was your idea You still surprise me That is no small feat For someone I’ve known longer than myself I was a clump of cells to you I’d play dominos or anything really If you’d never worry If that kept us busy enough not to think We’re so exhausting I’ll hear your voice in shells for years I’ll smell the foam that coats our knees and toes The waves they crash, then just roll past They always pass us I’m okay, but could you help me up
7.
River 03:50
I’ve been waiting for you to call for 6 hours Think you slept through most of those I could only shower Water down my spine Lays my mind out by the river Feet are caked in mud We are only looking up The clouds warn me I’ll fall in love I started missing you the first night you slept over Warmed the sheets 10 degrees Now each day they grow colder Pillow props me up When your arm isn’t wrapped around my shoulders Can almost hear you breathing in the white noise Fallen now, I’ve got no choice
8.
Some Days 03:27
How do I live Without your love showering on me What do I give When there’s nothing you want from me How do I live What do I give Is it me who runs away Or have I learned to smother things Is there no chance you would stay What will feel better when we’re not together Miss you most when I first wake Hope we realize our mistakes I keep dreaming that you’ll wait For me at the edge of the sea How do I live Without your love showering on me What do I give When there’s nothing you want from me How do I live What do I give Some days this world isn’t enough There’s cold sheets where there once was blood Some days this life isn’t enough My mind wanders back and just gets stuck Some days this love isn’t enough Find it everywhere but it’s never us Some days we weren’t enough I remind myself Call out my own bluff How do I live Without your love showering on me What do I give When there’s nothing you want from me How do I live What do I give Some days, some days
9.
White Wall 04:04
As amiable as possible A white wall Write all over me Though I’m still angry You don’t scrape and peel, at least try to see I once had designs, faded lines I think you’d like the living room Chartreuse green and bright In the sun, you’d be surprised That it was all me too A name practically optional A white wall Write all over me I’ll steep in fury Hang in the air, but not your memory I once was velvet, plum or violet Like royalty and wounds I’d lick my blood You would know when you fucked up That might be good for you I’ll strip it down I can’t hurt now I’m a white wall Write all over me
10.
Sharks 04:19
I take longer showers As if the steam will liquify your sharpened words As if the insults coat me like a layer of dirt I’ll keep scrubbing, that does something I stand here for hours As if the time must hold some strip of unturned earth As if the thought is buried, I await its birth I stopped running, that does something Sorry I wasn’t listening You’re right, I have been different Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise You get so loud They’ll say she drowned in her own house I breathe in the water As if the saline cleanses as it floods and burns As if the pain will leave and never dare return I’ll keep flushing, that does something Sorry I wasn’t listening You’re right, I have been different Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise You get so loud They’ll say she drowned in her own house It’s almost funny I was scared of waves But you’re terrifying I was scared of sharks When you were behind me Can’t just punch your nose to stop the biting Sorry I wasn’t listening You’re right, I had been deferent Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise You get so loud They’ll say she drowned in her own house It’s almost funny I was scared of waves But you’re terrifying I was scared of sharks When you were behind me Guess I’ll punch your nose, it’s worth trying
11.
Enough 03:04
I don’t remember the words I just remember the heat Your frustration, it engulfed me You would boil like July I was a November night Felt good to thaw till I dried I wait, and I wait, and I wait, and I wait To hear you say I’m enough Even when I’m spacey I want love Not someone to change me I am all I can be Take or leave baby I don’t remember my mind Before you nestled in deep The obsessions were more varied Your gaze, my demise I liquified in those eyes Felt good to sprawl intertwined I wait, and I wait, and I wait, and I wait To hear you say I’m enough Even when I’m shaky I want love Not someone to change me I’m enough, I’m enough, I’m enough When I’m crazy I am all I can be Take or leave baby
12.
In the End 04:13
Sun streams across my bed Haven’t breathed fresh air in days Blend into one Become the same Keep trying to sleep in Waking up tense again It’s almost noon Waiting to feel okay What’s the point Sun streams across my porch Chase the light Surround me dead plants Yellow cushions Support my yearning for illusion Keep trying to be more Fill my brain with acclaimed films, fierce revolutions Knowledge and its quick delusions What’s the point If love is all that matters in the end Then why does it end If love is all that matters in the end Then why do I end it If love is all that matters Then what’s the point
13.
Reborn 02:14
I’m reborn a little In the months between Wallowing, electric green I’m reborn a little Oh the months, they pass As the clouds roll past I lie down Wood grain Splinters in my brain Is it sacrilegious That I’ve overwritten My claimed intuition Is it sacrilegious I watched as it rot Didn’t try to stop I lie down Wood grain Splinters in my brain I’m reborn a little In the months that pass You never ask I’m reborn a little As the clouds roll past You never ask So we’re speaking now? Unfamiliar sound I lie down Wood grain Splinters in my brain
14.
Better 03:39
I don’t know what to say When my mom tells me to be kind To go easy on the pain I don’t think that day’s so far away Anymore My dad asks if I’m okay Says that beauty grows in dark places But light can feed the same And it’s warm Three weeks ago I learned my mind is not my soul And I’ve been feeling better Knowing this is not forever Knowing I could learn control Thousands of ways I want to change Thought I’d try it all at once Just open up and be done Bring me back down to earth I’m spiraling in mist and moonbeams It’s better than the dirt But it’s work Three weeks ago I learned my mind is not my soul And I’ve been feeling better Knowing this is not forever A year ago I threw my whole into the pit Begging for forgiveness Begging for direction I’m not ashamed anymore Not to blame anymore We don’t know what life’s for I’ve been feeling better Knowing this is not forever Knowing I could learn control

about

The debut full length album from Old Man of the Woods.

Flickering between devotion and resentment, affection and isolation, faith and doubt, Votives forms a sonic labyrinth guided by a dream that our minds are little churches filled with votives burning for everyone we’ve loved. The first three tracks construct a triptych - beginning with ‘Garden’, an ambient hum evolving with repetition from a hesitant fascination to an unwavering trust, where the candle is lit; moving to ‘Let Me Miss You’, a ukulele-strummed post-breakup plea that begs to feel nostalgic instead of hurt, where it still burns for a memory; then to ‘Votives’, a danceable bass-driven reminder to let go of the memories that only weigh us down, where we blow it out. As the album progresses, these themes repeat, morph, and steep. We grieve our lost loves and lost selves, slowly growing stronger and more assured, with honest moments of weakness along the way. Written from 2018 to 2021, Votives is a journey through what it means to love and be human and make mistakes and keep going. Wrapped in a warm fog of dreamy harmonies and swirling synths, it reminds us that love is magic, release is vital, and movement is forever.

“A pleasant, dreamy synth-pop journey with delicate harmonies that feel like they’re striking the listener from all angles” - Stereogum

“Each pop nugget is like a different landscape painting, textural and intriguing, with deeper meaning hidden behind the lush, beguiling surfaces” - Foxy Digitalis

“One second the record feels engulfed in a deep nebulous fog of doubt, the next it is a sunbeam breaking through, shining a light on what is it to be human, in love, out of love and very much willing to learn how to cope with both” - For the Rabbits


Note: "Open, Hoping" and "Reborn" are digital/tape-only tracks and not included on the vinyl version.

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released October 15, 2021

Written, recorded, and produced by Miranda Elliott
Mastered by SK Tandon at Rose Quartz Mastering
© 2021 Totally Real Records

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Old Man of the Woods Seattle, Washington

ethereal electro pop project of richmond & seattle-based songwriter and producer miranda elliott.

the alchemy of shit into sustenance. named after a dark scruffy mushroom that survives by the same creed.

“blurs the line between the personal and the natural world, conjuring a vivid and sometimes eerie soundscape as damp and rich as the woodland floor” (vsf)
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