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Garden
05:10
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You grazed in the pasture
I wanted some
But I wouldn’t run to you
I chased you down after
Tell me the taste
I see the sun kissed you
I do
We traced the old city wall
I know the place
I met them all with you
The garden was dark and sprawled with you
With you, I do
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2. |
Let Me Miss You
03:43
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I wish that it was 1970
I’d call your answering machine
Pretend you’re whispering to me
Instead I see your face on every screen
I wish that I could isolate the pain
Cut it out, sterilize, and clean
Give the wound a couple weeks
Instead it fills me whole, bursts at the seams
Let me miss you
Let me forget you
If I can’t kiss you
Can I regret you
Your sweat stains my sheets
Your lips brush my cheek
In my dreams, in my dreams
Let me miss you
I wish that I could recoup all I spent
Expanding the rooms of my mind
Just to fit you within them
Instead I’ll be too scared to build again
I’ll try to invent what comes next
I’ll remove your name from those plans
Alchemize the torment into text
Clear my head
Let me miss you
Let me forget you
If I can’t kiss you
Can I regret you
Your air’s all I breathe
Your arms cradle me
In my dreams, in my dreams
Let me miss you
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3. |
Votives
04:18
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It’s been a few months, have you noticed
My friends are all ordering votives
Guaranteed, let em burn
Your true love will return
But I’ve never been one for clear motives
I held the flame in my mind
Red, gold (girl you gotta snuff the glow)
I held the weight of the time
Let go
Lighter on my own
Votives, votives, votives
I passed our old spot, windows boarded
Eyes to the ground, I ignored it
If you haunt the back booth, like I dream that you do
You might need a new address by morning
I held the flame in my mind
Red, gold (girl you know you gotta blow)
I held the weight of the time
Let go
Lighter on my own
Votives, votives, votives
Votives, votives, votives
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4. |
Running
02:49
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If you knew you’d think I’m crazed
Honestly, I’d agree
Been a while since I spoke your name
The shape tastes salty
My horoscope said to stop hoarding
Without memories, the present gets boring
I’m only human
Always want what I can’t have
When it’s you
Breathe in deep, exhale a laugh
It’s absurd
Circled every ring of hell
I’m still running, running, running
From the way we felt
Sleeping at my parents’ house
The walls remember you
From that winter when I drove
To the airport like a fool
I watched you unloading your bags
Just watched as you never looked back
I’m only human
Always want what I can’t have
When it’s you
Breathe in deep, exhale a laugh
It’s absurd
Circled every ring of hell
I’m still running, running, running
From the way we felt
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5. |
Open, Hoping
03:42
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I’ve been open, hoping for days
Shrugging off sleep
Disappointed when I wake
I’ve been open, hoping for days
Curtains open, doors open while we change
Last night I dreamt of dirty feet
Would I remember seeing you
You promised you’d come back for me
I’ve been open, hoping for days
Curtains open, doors open while we change
Everyone leaves when you need them the most
I know it’s not about me, but it hurts being alone
Empty rooms, quiet hallways when I’m home
I’ve been open, hoping for days
Staring into white walls
Shadows forming your face
I’ve been open, hoping for days
Curtains open, doors open while we change
Last week I went out to greet you
The petals were falling, but I just couldn’t feel you
Your body’s underground, but you’ve run far from there by now
Can you hear me, can you speak
Are you happy, are you laughing
To love is to set free, but I wish you’d stayed with me
Everyone leaves when you need them the most
I know it’s not about me, but it hurts being alone
Empty rooms, quiet hallways when I’m home
Is it a myth we can exist on our own
Sometimes I need space, but sometimes I need to us
To be here, to be held, to be whole
I’ve been open, hoping for days
I’ve been open, hoping for days
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6. |
Hissing
03:39
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We walked to the water
It reached for us, hissing
Like the wind between my teeth
Laugh, we’re ridiculous
A planet of sharp sand, swirling
Coating our bones
I’d stand still forever
To feel you floating beside me
Heat up two square miles
Coax me from hiding
I need you to drag me
I’m selfish sometimes
I’ll hear your voice in shells for years
I’ll smell the foam that coats our knees and toes
The waves they crash, then just roll past
They always pass us
I’m okay, but could you help me up
We smoked a spliff on the deck
I don’t usually do this
But we’re on vacation
I’m trying to be content
Sitting and staying
It’s actually pleasant
Laid in the dunes
It was your idea
You still surprise me
That is no small feat
For someone I’ve known longer than myself
I was a clump of cells to you
I’d play dominos or anything really
If you’d never worry
If that kept us busy enough not to think
We’re so exhausting
I’ll hear your voice in shells for years
I’ll smell the foam that coats our knees and toes
The waves they crash, then just roll past
They always pass us
I’m okay, but could you help me up
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7. |
River
03:50
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I’ve been waiting for you to call for 6 hours
Think you slept through most of those
I could only shower
Water down my spine
Lays my mind out by the river
Feet are caked in mud
We are only looking up
The clouds warn me I’ll fall in love
I started missing you the first night you slept over
Warmed the sheets 10 degrees
Now each day they grow colder
Pillow props me up
When your arm isn’t wrapped around my shoulders
Can almost hear you breathing in the white noise
Fallen now, I’ve got no choice
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8. |
Some Days
03:27
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How do I live
Without your love showering on me
What do I give
When there’s nothing you want from me
How do I live
What do I give
Is it me who runs away
Or have I learned to smother things
Is there no chance you would stay
What will feel better when we’re not together
Miss you most when I first wake
Hope we realize our mistakes
I keep dreaming that you’ll wait
For me at the edge of the sea
How do I live
Without your love showering on me
What do I give
When there’s nothing you want from me
How do I live
What do I give
Some days this world isn’t enough
There’s cold sheets where there once was blood
Some days this life isn’t enough
My mind wanders back and just gets stuck
Some days this love isn’t enough
Find it everywhere but it’s never us
Some days we weren’t enough
I remind myself
Call out my own bluff
How do I live
Without your love showering on me
What do I give
When there’s nothing you want from me
How do I live
What do I give
Some days, some days
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9. |
White Wall
04:04
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As amiable as possible
A white wall
Write all over me
Though I’m still angry
You don’t scrape and peel, at least try to see
I once had designs, faded lines
I think you’d like the living room
Chartreuse green and bright
In the sun, you’d be surprised
That it was all me too
A name practically optional
A white wall
Write all over me
I’ll steep in fury
Hang in the air, but not your memory
I once was velvet, plum or violet
Like royalty and wounds
I’d lick my blood
You would know when you fucked up
That might be good for you
I’ll strip it down
I can’t hurt now
I’m a white wall
Write all over me
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10. |
Sharks
04:19
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I take longer showers
As if the steam will liquify your sharpened words
As if the insults coat me like a layer of dirt
I’ll keep scrubbing, that does something
I stand here for hours
As if the time must hold some strip of unturned earth
As if the thought is buried, I await its birth
I stopped running, that does something
Sorry I wasn’t listening
You’re right, I have been different
Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise
You get so loud
They’ll say she drowned in her own house
I breathe in the water
As if the saline cleanses as it floods and burns
As if the pain will leave and never dare return
I’ll keep flushing, that does something
Sorry I wasn’t listening
You’re right, I have been different
Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise
You get so loud
They’ll say she drowned in her own house
It’s almost funny
I was scared of waves
But you’re terrifying
I was scared of sharks
When you were behind me
Can’t just punch your nose to stop the biting
Sorry I wasn’t listening
You’re right, I had been deferent
Can’t stand my wavering voice cut to shreds with noise
You get so loud
They’ll say she drowned in her own house
It’s almost funny
I was scared of waves
But you’re terrifying
I was scared of sharks
When you were behind me
Guess I’ll punch your nose, it’s worth trying
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11. |
Enough
03:04
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I don’t remember the words
I just remember the heat
Your frustration, it engulfed me
You would boil like July
I was a November night
Felt good to thaw till I dried
I wait, and I wait, and I wait, and I wait
To hear you say
I’m enough
Even when I’m spacey
I want love
Not someone to change me
I am all I can be
Take or leave baby
I don’t remember my mind
Before you nestled in deep
The obsessions were more varied
Your gaze, my demise
I liquified in those eyes
Felt good to sprawl intertwined
I wait, and I wait, and I wait, and I wait
To hear you say
I’m enough
Even when I’m shaky
I want love
Not someone to change me
I’m enough, I’m enough, I’m enough
When I’m crazy
I am all I can be
Take or leave baby
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12. |
In the End
04:13
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Sun streams across my bed
Haven’t breathed fresh air in days
Blend into one
Become the same
Keep trying to sleep in
Waking up tense again
It’s almost noon
Waiting to feel okay
What’s the point
Sun streams across my porch
Chase the light
Surround me dead plants
Yellow cushions
Support my yearning for illusion
Keep trying to be more
Fill my brain with acclaimed films, fierce revolutions
Knowledge and its quick delusions
What’s the point
If love is all that matters in the end
Then why does it end
If love is all that matters in the end
Then why do I end it
If love is all that matters
Then what’s the point
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13. |
Reborn
02:14
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I’m reborn a little
In the months between
Wallowing, electric green
I’m reborn a little
Oh the months, they pass
As the clouds roll past
I lie down
Wood grain
Splinters in my brain
Is it sacrilegious
That I’ve overwritten
My claimed intuition
Is it sacrilegious
I watched as it rot
Didn’t try to stop
I lie down
Wood grain
Splinters in my brain
I’m reborn a little
In the months that pass
You never ask
I’m reborn a little
As the clouds roll past
You never ask
So we’re speaking now?
Unfamiliar sound
I lie down
Wood grain
Splinters in my brain
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14. |
Better
03:39
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I don’t know what to say
When my mom tells me to be kind
To go easy on the pain
I don’t think that day’s so far away
Anymore
My dad asks if I’m okay
Says that beauty grows in dark places
But light can feed the same
And it’s warm
Three weeks ago
I learned my mind is not my soul
And I’ve been feeling better
Knowing this is not forever
Knowing I could learn control
Thousands of ways I want to change
Thought I’d try it all at once
Just open up and be done
Bring me back down to earth
I’m spiraling in mist and moonbeams
It’s better than the dirt
But it’s work
Three weeks ago
I learned my mind is not my soul
And I’ve been feeling better
Knowing this is not forever
A year ago
I threw my whole into the pit
Begging for forgiveness
Begging for direction
I’m not ashamed anymore
Not to blame anymore
We don’t know what life’s for
I’ve been feeling better
Knowing this is not forever
Knowing I could learn control
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Old Man of the Woods Seattle, Washington
ethereal electro pop project of richmond & seattle-based songwriter and producer miranda
elliott.
the alchemy of shit into sustenance. named after a dark scruffy mushroom that survives by the same creed.
“blurs the line between the personal and the natural world, conjuring a vivid and sometimes eerie soundscape as damp and rich as the woodland floor” (vsf)
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